Nausea. Sickness. Vomiting. I take my wet shirt off. I am all covered in cold sweat. I get under two blankets, but I’m still freezing. For a few minutes, I feel better. Exhausted, but better. Then the cycle starts all over again. Nausea. Sickness. Vomiting. I take my shirt off and wipe the cold sweat off. I run under the blankets, freezing. It goes on all day. The doctor comes with an infusion bag. It should make up for the liquids I lost. He tries to find a vein, but from dehydration, my veins have disappeared. He tries one, two, three, then finally the forth pinch finds a vein. I get my infusion, then a bit of sleep. When I wake up, it starts all over again. In the evening I get a drive to the hospital where I’m given an obligatory pregnancy check (everything ok there), and a night of non-stop infusions. I wake up this morning all fresh and new.
My word of the day: to infuse.
Main Entry: infuse
Part of Speech: verb
Synonyms:
fill, imbue, impart, implant, inculcate, inspire, instill, introduce, leaven, pervade, plant, saturate, soak, steep.
Dictionary meanings:
1. to introduce, as if by pouring; cause to penetrate; instill (usually fol. by into): The energetic new principal infused new life into the school.
2. to imbue or inspire (usually fol. by with): The new coach infused the team with enthusiasm.
3. to steep or soak (leaves, bark, roots, etc.) in a liquid so as to extract the soluble properties or ingredients.
4. Obsolete. to pour in.
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I like the name of your website. I went through a long period of “alienation” which I described as “feeling like you have just landed on earth, you are a visitor to this world, a stranger to your family and friends…” it’s not like you dont remmember them or something. You know they are your parents, friends etc but you are kinda disconnected. You feel like you are torn apart from them, from the world that you knew. And this feeling comes after panic attacks….I don’t know if the name of your blog comes from there but I like it.